i am dying inside. what the hell is wrong with you?

im fucking stressed every day in my life now trying to get the grades i want. the last thing i ever need for you to do is to stand at the other side and get angry at me.

well if i would die, i would. maybe if i did, we wouldnt be fated to be together.

fine, i know thats concern.i know thats love. but i need to go....

fuck,its not just killing me but its also ruining our relationship.

i hate you.

i have been busy up to my neck lately and its gonna get worse for the next two weeks.FML.

Philippines has declared a state of emergency in their country but im going there in less than three weeks time. i hope nothing happens seriously.:(

dan is damn angry at me for insisting on going there. he describes the place as upheaval etc etc.

what to do. i paid, i took the jabs, our background research almost done,how can i back out?????

i need sleep.

today is a day that i dont feel like doing any work.
my laptop broke down for the umpteenth time.
my french hw is fucking hard. should i even go today?

i need a break from school.seriously.

today i lost my ezlink card. you have no idea how much i panicked cuz i just paid almost a hundred bucks for the concession.lucky a kind soul brought it back to school and they emailed me to collect it!bless that nice person man!

i have to pay for an extra thing every month again.the internet.goshhhh almost 20 per month:(((

Today im gonna blog about my relationship with danny.

some might be wondering why i suddenly changed. didnt i say i dont love him no more?

well well well..the feelings have started to come back i guess.maybe because of the fact that he might have a chance to come back this december. i realised that the one who loves me the most is still him.

and that im being more ''myself'' with him now if u get what i mean.

spells trouble for him cuz im always the reason we r quarrelling.

haha but we are happy nevertheless!

now i'll just have to keep my fingers crossed that my baby will do well.

GOSHHHH i was kicking up a big big fuss just now

now i feel so so bad.

i love my dannyboy to bits hehehe.

apparently he has made a deal with his parents if he get at least an A or three Bs he gets to come here in december.so this silly boy has been cooping himself up and studying till the wee hours every day and i thought he forgot about me. but yay keeps fingers crossed.i know he can do it.:)

sometimes i just feel like screaming loudly into your face(if i could really do that).

can someone tell me, why are we always together with some jerk?not some loving caring sweet guy? how do you even deal with a guy who is like uncontactable 24/7 unless out of a sudden when hes in a good mood he comes online?

no matter how many times i've said it just doesnt get into ur head that it wouldnt work this way. having exams doesnt shield you from any of these.

i just woke up from a two hour nap.still tired.

ate korean noodles mmm

in the middle of watching theres something about mary

gonna read a book now.

god, i love having me-time!

I would like to thank everyone for my awesome birthday yesterday:)

i had a really really good time,the cakes,the gifts were awesome

at night me and yajun went to this japanese restaurant at clarke quay.after the meal they started to sing the birthday song the whole restaurant was looking and clapping i was like shitzzz

both of us had a really good heart to heart talk and had a lot of cake:)

i went to church it was all souls days yesterday too.on the way to church while waiting at the bustop this delivery guy called me.turns out i had flowers waiting at my doorstep.isnt it sweet?i ran home and saw him downstairs and my,the roses are so pretty.

thanks lovely i know the flowers really cost a lot.

owiyum gave me this :)))