after a month or so, still no bf. so sad. lol.

nah im not that sad, singlehood's the bestzzzzz

loving it.

sometimes my heart feels like giving in and taking you back.

i want you to be back.

but then again,need and want are different things altogether

in fact,you shouldnt even be allowed to come back.

friends are sooo good.i love my friends.

these few days have been so stressful i broke down yesterday. big time.

a lot of shit to do,no break,too stressed up,period wont come, PMS like crazy.

PMS caused me to get hungry every two hours, not being able to eat much at every meal, feel like screaming and punching people who irritate me(mind you a handful of them).

the stress seriously, made my whole body itch like crazy.i think im dying soon.

portfolios,Ning, packing of luggage, buying all the necessary stuff, visit grandparents(auntie house and columbarium), collect new laptop,see the doc and sugar for my earl grey(reason for my break down)

i hate school.

:(((((((.

today was my delf exam. it was ok....i hope to get an excellente this time.

it was a killer to wait for my turn for the oral. out of the four teachers testing, two of them are on very good terms with me but i just didnt get them.just my luck.mine was super stern i guess.

he asked stupid questions like

what bus do you take home from here.

soixante(sixty....) huit(eight), he wrote it down and repeated. soixante-huit? written on his face are the words...are u kidding me there isnt such a bus number outside here. ok i wanted to say sixty six or sixty seven but i just simply forgot due to my nervousness.

so i was supposed to ask questions using the words on the cards they gave.

one of them was loisirs(hobbies)

vous avez des loisirs?( you have some hobbies?)

with a quoi?(what?) look on his face that said of course i have hobbies.

so now hes the vendor im the buyer.supposed to buy shoes and a sports bag. i forgot how much he said the shoes cost so....

vous voulez les deux?( you want both?)

non.....je veux acheter le sac...seulement(no..i want to buy the bag only)

gives that weird look again*

au revoir.

today was pms day, oh well. it got so bad i couldnt study.

i love talking.it makes it happy.

a few days before it was over, i told god to tell him everything will be alright in philippines. but i think god knew he wasnt the right one.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

as you all might know already, its over between us.

there is no turning back because of what he had done this time.

after two years and a lil more, he decided that he did not like an asian gf.

and that he needs to figure some things about me.

go figure.

im going off first. i cant stay with someone who insults my race.

surprisingly, im not sad enough to cry this time round. idk is it because i havent been listening to emo songs or whats the reason. but instead i feel angry for myself. and relieved. i guess its good for me. i'll never be as childish like him to block me or whatsoever. i am totally cool with us talking.maybe an apology will be good. but thats it.no more.

i think i'll never get a bf. all the guys here...really CMI. plus with the bad temper and ''asian mentality'', its even harder. oh well.

i'll be good on my own,maybe god will find me one.

ov shared this with me

People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

..

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

or to provide you with guidance and support,

to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

...

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

...

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they just walk away.

Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

...

When people come into your life for a SEASON,

it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.

They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall,

the season eventually ends.

...

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;

those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway);

and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being part of my life.

Hope u like it too

leaving you in november; forever

its the, i hesitate to call it 'asian' mentallity...

putting ur grades before all else, the attitude towards kids

at least the system over here is not so discriminating, i would never have got into uni otherwise

if asians werent like this, always striving to do their best, working very hard everyday, our forefathers wouldnt have made singapore to be what it is today

oh? and who helped them with that?

that was it, i'll never take him back again.