tes yeux, j'en reve jour et nuit

im feeling especially emotional today,idk why.

i never ever talked about my handicap/illness publicly before but now,im going to well..address it.

its called cerebral palsy,i hope u know what it means,if u don't,read this
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cerebral_palsy

it may not depict the real actual condition of mine as mines really mild though.

i had it since i was born,i think it was cuz i had stayed in the birth canal for too long that caused my left brain to swell a lil and thats why i have this disability.

you have no idea,how much i think bout it,wonder what it feels like not to have CP at all,how it feels like to be walking,typing,swimming,running,playing ball games with people without it..i often think is it karma,like something bad i've done in my past life,to be inflicted upon with such an illness.i wont die,from this disability,i have after all,been surviving well these 17 years of my life.there are times,i want to start all my life over again,in the hope that i'll truly be a normal person like everyone else. i always told past guys i dated i have this condition as well.thus im so glad i have a bf who loves me more cuz of this.

i remembered there was once i went for an interview for hotel receptionist they rejected me cuz i told them i couldnt type as fast.anyway,thats a crime to discriminate against someone who has a disability. anyway,the hotel's called le meridien(used to i think),now its called concorde something.

out of 1000 about 2 gets it.why me???why?theres no cure for it.no bloody cure.but there are expensive ways like botox to make it ok temporarily.they are doing stem cell research for that too,i hope that in like twenty years time they'll somehow find a cure for it,so that people born with CP wont have to suffer anymore.

guess what in paralympics the girl who got bronze for horseriding for singapore has cerebral palsy as well.

oh well im so glad my IQ level is not affected or anything like that.i want to thank god and my friends and family:)))))

its dolphyinn@gmail.com if u got comments that is.