tes yeux, j'en reve jour et nuit

have u ever felt really scared cuz you were afraid to lose something?
or because..at that instance,you were so happy that you're so scared that all of these things will vanish?
life is so fucking hard..why??can anyone tell me?
people dont understand me, they dont know why i do the things i do, they have no idea why i act like that, not even my own parents.why cant people tell that im trying very hard to put on this façade to protect my own heart, to keep it safely locked away, somewhere?

when we are struck at without a reason,we should strike back again very hard,i am sure we should-so hard as to teach the person who struck us never to do it again.
-charlotte bronte, jane eyre

everytime something goes wrong,it is always my fault, people always deny me of the chance to speak up for myself.they just simply draw their own conclusions and say that im the troublemaker,im the one at fault.never once did they use their pea-sized brain to think that other people could have maligned me or whatsoever.

im sorry i ranted on so much,stop reading if you want to..
i need lotsa hugs n kisses

speak later xx